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Post by allison katherine barretti on Mar 16, 2010 11:06:43 GMT -5
The though of turning back too hide out in her apartment was defiantly something Alli wanted so desperately too do. She was afraid that seeing Wesley was only going to make that gaping hole in her heart ten times larger. She had been holding onto the mere thought of him for a while now and she couldn’t ever deny the fact that she missed him as every waking minute passed. He had really been her first love and she had too live with herself and the regret she had for letting him go. She had thought it was for the best, that eventually her family would give in and accept Wes for who he was and the fact that their daughter was so in love with him. Though it didn’t really work out the way she had hoped. Even after she ended things with Wesley her parent’s still had trouble accepting her and the fact that she no longer had faith in their religion. Alli’s family couldn’t handle it at all, they strongly believed in god and the life they had created for their children.
It wasn’t that Allison no longer believe in god , she just didn’t see why you had too live you’re, life according too the rule he supposedly set. She didn’t see why it wasn’t okay too seriously date someone before you got married, why it was looked down upon to test the waters when it came too drugs and alcohol. Although she really wasn’t one too do drugs she had tried a few and just decided they weren’t for her. There we’re so many things she wanted too experience in life, and with her parents and their over bearing religious ways holding her down there was no way in hell she was going too be able to accomplish them. So in a way she felt like it was a good thing her family no longer cared about her, but deep down she missed them terrible and just wanted them too one day accept her for who she was; and not who they wanted her too be.
That’s all she could think about while she was on the way down too the beach was her family, and how much she missed them . She had always had her sister in her life too run too, her brother there when she needed too be protected, and her baby brother there too cuddle when no one else was around. Now she had her apartment and her dog. Speaking of dog’s the four year old papillon was trotting at her heel’s a baby blue harness placed onto his body that was attached to the leash that was wrapped around Alli’s hand. The canine was the only thing she could really rely on these days. He was always there when she woke up, and he never disappointed her. Sure it seemed stupid too put all of her love into a dog and as pathetic as was roman brought out the happiness in her that seemed too disappear the day every thing fell apart.
Though she was never really the type of person who expected nor wanted sympathy from people. If her parents had taught her one valuable lesson it was too never let people see you’re weaknesses . Even if she felt like she had reached her weakest point yet, she refused too let people know it. She was such a strong person, but she felt like her tolerance too handle thing was growing thin and eventually she would gave nothing too shelter her; and that scared her indefinitely . No longer did she have people to lean on, it was just here and she was determined to grow and blossom as a simple seeding . She wanted too prove too herself that she could be on her own and depend on solely herself.
Finally she felt the sand between her bare feet and a smile curved its way out upon her lips as Roman tugged on the lease. Leaning down she kissed the top of his , letting him free of the constrictions and watching as he took off running along the waters edge. Usually she would be afraid he would take off and she would never see her beloved little dog ever again but he loved the beach and knew better than too run off anyways; or at least that’s just what she told herself. Taking in a deep breath of the warm ocean air, she caught sight of a familiar outline one of a male ; Wesley. Or at least she hoped it was him, because if not she was currently walking up too greet some stranger.
It wasn’t until she mad her way up too him that she realized her hands we’re trembling. It had been a while since she had last had any sort of contact with him. It would defiantly be hard if he decided too just walk away form completely, and she would understand if he did she really would. It would just be hard too handle. Cocking her head to the side she looked up at him laughing a little ” Hey you” she cooed up at him . She was mentally preparing herself for anything he had too say, and she had already convinced herself on the way here that if he hated her she would accept it. She was also holding herself back form placing her arms around his neck and never letting go, but he probably didn’t even want her too touch him and for that the blame rested solidly on her shoulders.
TAGGED FOR WESLEY//LINDY
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Post by wesley james anderson on Mar 16, 2010 22:28:07 GMT -5
wesley...wasnt entirely sure on how to feel. he was all mixed up inside. there were so many emotions running crazy inside his head. he was happy, he was sad, he was in love, he was heartbroken. nothing made sense. he was so excited that alli was here... but he dreaded seeing her again. absolutely dreaded it. it was the face he had been dreaming about ever since she left, the face that had haunted him from that moment on. she had probably never once actually left his mind. she was always there, either residing in the back of his mind, or full up all he could think about. everything around him reminded him of her. he would often time see the sand and think of her hair, sing a song and think of her voice, everything was about her. and he hated it he wanted to move on. but it was impossible.
so wes was pretty..nervous to say the least, when he told her to meet him at the beach. really, all he wanted to do was wrap his arms around her once more, and kiss those perfect lips. he wanted her back, he wanted her so badly it hurt. but he couldnt.. allow himself to be in that vulnerable situation once again. the situation in which he'd do anything for her and she'd just.. leave him hanging. in all honestly he had never really gotten over what she had done. he was bitter and angry at everything that had happened. but he loved her, he was sure of it. there was no other explanation.
wes' hands were shaking as he pulled on the striped sweater. he pulled on some tight skinny jeans and slipped into some vans, and pulled on a gray hat. he didnt know how he was supposed to even feel at the moment. he was so confused. he just...wanted to .... hide.
he made his way to the beach and waited for her. he smiled softly as he heard a dog running through the sand, and watched as it approached the shore. he always loved dogs. they were so happy and carefree and excited about everything. he then looked closer.. the dog looked awfully familiar. then, there she was. right beside him. and he could feel his heart melting and all his troubles seem to slip away. she had always had that effect on him. no matter what the situation, she would always..captivate him. she smiled at him and he couldn't help but smile back. and...god how he wanted to hold her. he smiled at her stupidly for a few moments, as he looked at her for the first time in awhile. ....hiiiiiiii.
[/color] the smile on his face was so stupid. he just leaned in and wrapped his arms around her waist, pulling her in for a tight hug. he didn't even care anymore. he just wanted to hold her. and thats what he did. he closed his eyes and buried his face into her neck. he had missed her so much. and now he was succombing to her. imissedyou.[/color][/size][/blockquote][/blockquote][/blockquote][/justify] [/center]
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